Two Week Wait

In the infertility world, the Two Week Wait (TWW) is the longest, hardest, most agonizing two weeks of your life. And it happens every month you don't get those two pink lines.

After potential conception, you have two weeks before you can test for pregnancy. Two weeks to overthink every single symptom and twinge. You aren't supposed to test until exactly two weeks but lets be real, I test early and frequently leading up to beta day. Beta day is usually exactly two weeks after ovulation and tests the level of hormones (HCG) in your blood that would signify pregnancy (also what produces a positive line on a pee stick). I over analyze headaches, food cravings, cramps, discharge, tender boobs. If I feel the hint of a pregnancy symptom I'm convinced this is the month and I proceed to pee on negative after negative test.

I think since we've started trying, I've peed on...oh I don't know...over a hundred pregnancy tests!! Probably more honestly because I found a cheap box of pregnancy strips on amazon that come in a pack of 50 and I'm almost through that from this year alone.

Anyways, right now I'm on a whole other level of the dreaded TWW. My cycle is supposed to start in two weeks. Which means IVF starts in two weeks. I'm freaking out. To keep myself busy since I'm an OCD, control freak, I've been shopping and planning how I'm going to physically handle this whole cycle. So far in preparing I've got:

✖️mini ice packs for injection sites in the freezer

✖️a whiteboard calendar to make sure I don't miss a day

✖️a little retro toolbox to store all my meds & supplies

✖️an entire storage bin with a weeks worth of little baskets to hold a days worth of meds (brilliantly planned by my MIL as a fool proof plan for organizing the daily injection and med schedule for Adam)

✖️a pineapple journal (from my mama) to record and track my symptoms

✖️and a new t-shirt for retrieval day! Which I'll post on the big day because it's too cute not to share.

I feel physically ready and prepared. I just need to sort out my mental. The therapist at our clinic is booked until February (insert sobbing emoji). So I need to find somebody else that is fluent in infertility. If you have anybody you'd like to share please comment or message me!!

The one thing I am still mentally panicking about is the shots. I've asked Adam to handle that job. To take on the responsibility of learning the techniques, figuring out the dosage and timing and to be on top of my schedule as intensely as I am. I'm hoping that if he can handle the shots job, I can have one less thing to think about, over analyze and administer myself. It has taken our last big miscarriage to get me over passing out with a simple blood draw. Lets be honest, I'd hit the floor when trying to shove an earring through a partially closed hole in my ear. I don't know what it is about needles entering my body that makes me drop. I cried through the entire intro video we had to watch on administering shots. I feel like a wimp but up until 2018 I would wake up on the floor of every hospital room and blood draw station because the nurses couldn't catch me in time. To put it lightly I'm really good at passing out and I'm terrified if I have to administer the shots myself, I'll be on the floor before I even fill the syringe.

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Has anybody else left the shots up to their partner? If you did, how did it go and if you didn't, what did you do to release some of the burden?

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I don't want to try to do this all by myself so I really hope Adam is ready to take on some of the responsibility. This is a lot for one person to carry on top of the fact that it's scary and its stressful and completely taxing on your body. My love language is 1000% acts of service so if Adam can do this it will be the biggest way to support me in this process. Also, I'm thinking if he has to do them he'll at least have to be home and can help me if I do pass out. If I was home by myself, idk what would happen.

I still have to do a few things before these two weeks are up and would love some input if there's anything I'm missing or should be doing to prepare. I know acupuncture is supposed to be a good thing but I've tried it and it's not for me (obv). I plan to re-read the It Starts with an Egg book for the thousandth time but anything more to help prepare would be greatly appreciated!!

Thanks for reading and supporting us.

As always,

Love your souls

Skye