A Late Start

I didn't get married until I was 30. I felt so far behind, the last of my friends to get married.

It wasn't my plan, I thought I would have been married by 25 and have 2 kids by 30 but as they say "life never goes as planned." Because we took the traditional route and dated for five years, spent a year together backpacking through Australia and living out of a van, bought a house, got married on our land, adopted 2 dogs, I thought the next step would be a breeze, that we would start trying and a few months later be pregnant. Man was I wrong.

We've been trying for three years and have had three miscarriages (a whole separate story in itself!). We've spent the first years of our marriage being dragged through the mud of infertility. It was definitely not something we ever thought we'd go through, nor put our families through but, here we are. We're surviving, some days, barely but we aren't giving up. We've had 3 failed IUI's and are now taking another break to regroup, save some money and pick up again in 2021. Lets hope 2021 is better...could it get any worse????

What has helped me the most, through all of this chaos, is to talk about it. The highs, the lows, the gross and uncomfortable conversations. And I know that isn't for everybody, and I know a lot of you go through these journeys alone, for many valid reasons, but I want to keep talking about it. To keep bringing awareness to the subject. To be an outlet for people struggling in silence.

I started this blog because I need to know I'm not alone. I need to know there's others going through this shit show of a journey with me. Whether you want to talk about it, or just want to read my posts alone, know that I am here for you. You are not alone.

Just know, I'm not afraid to talk about cervical mucus, I use a lot of dark humor to get through each month and I probably drink more wine than recommended. I wont judge you, your journey or your coping mechanisms. I'm here for it all. I can't wait to share my story and I hope you're here to stay.

All my love,

Skye